Wednesday, January 6, 2016

Week 1

So this week has been quite eventful. My sister who had been here with her baby since before Christmas went home. She left the baby with me for three extra days and I returns him. Yes he was slightly grumpy and a little sick, but she never complained....real mom award there. 

And I started rearranging things in my room. I think I am ready for a change. Maybe a more grown up look to things. I want it black and white, but we will see what it turns out to be. I also have been really into my past. I have been going through old pictures and watching old tv shows. I really wished ER was on Netflix. But Gilmore Girls works to although I have watched it all the way through probably 50 times, since it ended. 

This month my nephew turn 3 months old. I know I need to go over and help my sister go through all the things he has out grow. And add a few bigger things to his room. I also would like to get more decorations for his room. 

She is going to finally go and get on Wic. Hopefully she will get what she needs to provide for him, considering his dad isn't in his life I think it will be great to see her get the things she needs.

I can't wait to celebrate my birthday next month. Although I'm not looking forward to 32, it still will be a great time to think about something other then work or my back pain. 

January Prompting

I don't struggle much with things I want to write about. But I do tend to get off topic, so a quick questionnaire to help out the system. 

January
1. What is your number one goal this year?
           -Pay off my car.

2. What are you most grateful for?
           -My family, they took me in.

3. Are you content?
           -I should be, but no

4. What is your best memory of last year?
           -My nephew being brought into the world

5. What was the last major accomplishment you had?
           -Nailing my interview and getting my new job

6. What possession could you not live without?
           -My dog, although I think he believes I belong to him and not the other way around

7. Can people change?
           -Truly if they want to. And if they try hard enough.

8. What is the last “good” thing you ate?
            -Meatloaf, mashed potatoes, and green beans

9. What is your current favorite snack?
            -peanut m&ms

10. What made you smile today?
            -Gilmore Girls

11. What’s your favorite accessory?
            -Bobby Pin 

12. What is making you mad?
            -Back Pain

13. What did you have for dinner today?
             -White Castles

14. What did you get done?
             -Four loads of laundry, cleaning the living room

15. Who last called you on the phone?
             -My mother

16. Who are you in love with?
             - I'm not  

17. What are you grateful for?
             -The vet who took out my dogs tooth yesterday...hes one happy pup today

18. The best part of today was ______________ .
             -Watching TV and playing games on my computer...I'm boring

19. My current favorite website is _________________.
             - Pinterest

20. What was the hardest thing you’re dealing with?
             - Depression and anxiety

21. Today I wish I had more _________________.
              -Money, only enough to pay off the bills. Anymore would be a waste

22. Tomorrow will be better because ___________________.
             -I'm dreaming of a blueberry bagel with blueberry cream cheese

23. What made today unusual?
             -No one was home with me

24. What are you looking for from life?
             -I don't even try to look for anything

25. What is your favorite thing to drink?
             - Gold peak tea, peach crush, cherry Dr. Pepper, peach slush

26. Today the temperature was ___________________.
             -don't know or care

27. How much did you spend at the grocery store the last time you went?
             -$46

28. Tomorrow I will _________________________.
             -Go to work

29. What was your last major purchase?
             -Baby clothes for my nephew

30. My house is a home because _______________________.
             -Of the people who live here

31. Who is the last person to tell you they loved you?
             -I really don't know

Monday, December 28, 2015

2016

The year is at an end. What goals do you set for the new year? Will you start of 2016 in a bang or slowly let it devour you.
 Set a few goals

A BAD HABIT I’M GOING TO BREAK:
Swearing...I hope
A NEW SKILL I’D LIKE TO LEARN:
Piece Quilting, I can quilt panels, but I want to work on a T-Shirt quilt
A PERSON I HOPE TO BE MORE LIKE:
My Granny Jenkins, wholesome soul. 
A GOOD DEED I’M GOING TO DO:
Help others more
A PLACE I’D LIKE TO VISIT:
A State, any that I haven't been to
A BOOK I’D LIKE TO READ:
The Bible, front to back. I've never done it!
A LETTER I’M GOING TO WRITE:
To my nephew for the future
A NEW FOOD I’D  LIKE TO TRY:
hummus
I’M GOING TO DO BETTER AT:
Staying in contact with my dad's side of the family
What BIG things do you have planned for 2016?  Any exciting responses to the goals above?  COMMENT below and let me know!

Me and much more

I am a 31 year old, single female. I have no desire to find love or have a family....much due to my past but mostly to do with my future. I have no idea who I am or what I want to do. If I knew I probably wouldn't be sitting here, writing this in hopes that I could figure out this thing they call life.

But here I sit on a day off from work, instead of finding the energy to clean my house I write. I love to read, but it just isn't calling to me today and truth be told I would rather write.

It's a rainy day and I feel really calm which is very unlike me. My anger and overwhelming hatred of everything is at bay today! Something that for most of my life has prevented me from having friends, true friends and family. I;m not fake like most, I'm just very opinionated and honest. If I don't like like it then no and I probably like you less for liking something,...even though it is your right to like it. I don't want to argue with you about it, I'm just right.

Not Fair you say. Tough shit....so is life. Look around...do homeless choose to be homeless. I have an uncle who would say yes...get up and get a job. Do the abused choose that life...no. but I have heard people say you can leave. Tell that to the three year old me sitting in my room crying because I didn't do something the right way for my dad. Just a few examples.

Anyway, lately I just feel numb....Gotta find a way back to life.

Anything to help

Anyone to care

Any.......